There’s so much gaps in my heart that need to be filled. I’ve asked for too much for a lot of the things in the past that were beneficial to my soul only to be burned out in the future. All I can ask God is for Him to sustain me with His mercy on me and keep me and others in good health.
Most times I’m at a loss for what I REALLY want in life. Some of the things I wanted were not good to begin with, while the desirable things which are actually profitable to me for a VERY LONG are very difficult to attain. One day, I feel like being a mystic, the next day I’m less that and I’m failing.
There’s so much emphasis on my part to remain synergetical to God’s grade, but my sins (past, present, and future) are a burden.
Lord have mercy on me and please do not destroy me in my less than godly state, lest I die.